after seeing what she's going through right now, i'm pretty sure i don't want to be in an relationship. the feelings, the sadness and the confusion. i don't want them to come back. because i know i'm not ready, and i don't want to screw up another girl's life(:

hockey has been kind. even though training this week has been disrupted for weird reasons, most of us are still going down to the pitch to train. i guess thats good. everyone is improving, but whether we can make it as a team depends on next saturday. that friendly match against innova will show us the chemistry we have. 

its just a pity that some of us aren't working as hard as the rest. just don't see them around like the rest. haha i won't say who, but i think we'll know. my knee doesn't seem to be too happy. its starting to hurt again. screw it.

sometimes i really feel like swearing and screaming and destroying everything with a hockey stick. i said sometimes okay. today is a really really bad day.